today had picnic with my cell group(shu hui, xian hong, adrian, grace n li min) at east coast park..
so didn't study with my badminton friends
at east coast,
we had some sharing n games
ate alot(mostly snacks) today...
haha
then we went to parkway to find Luvena[she's working there part-time]
so wanted to give her a surprise
saw my pri sch friend, Eileen eating with Luvena at the food court
such a coincidence that they were from the same sec sch!:p
haha

hmmm...
i somehow feel awkward in this cell group..

even though i liked this cell group,
i feel that i can't really relate myself to them coz most of them are younger n they dun really understand what i'm going through as they are still young..
then i somehow feel that i'm like talking to myself during sharing..
not a good experience though
i somehow feel isolated
and i have no more motivation to go for cell group
haiz..
feeling confused now......

well...
i'll walk a step at a time..


i want to live life to the fullest..
but i somehow feel like i'm forbidden to do so


feeling lost.......